roller coaster ride

life is like a roller coaster ride, one minute you are at the top, with adrenalin pumping..the next second you are down at the bottom.

today is my 'down' day.. i feel that my future is bleak and grey. at the moment,  its indescribeable,  unexplanable and incurable and i'm hoping for a miracle. the cloudy, windy and cold (for this time of the year) weather doesnt help either. sometimes i wish that i could turn back the clock or go thro the time tunnel or my worst imagination as i was walking to fetch my little one from school - the earth would swallow me in.. when i look into my daughters' eyes and their smiles, i feel sad.. life is so full of uncertainties..the best i could do is du'a to Allah swt to ease this misery, and i always believe that Allah swt will grant my wishes eventually InsyaAllah